Today the sun shining, warming my skin and spirit,  I am preparing for the concert tonite where I will be singing with Shimshai in Vancouver.  This will be the fourth time I have sung with Shimshai, and it's been about 3.5 years since the last time.

 I remember my fearless enthusiasm to just jump in and sing back up with him when I didn't even know his songs that well.  I love that energy,  the willingness within me to play, to celebrate, to learn on the fly, to just show up and share with confidence and innocence, unjaded by having to be perfect or rehearsed. 

 I experience tremendous joy when I approach life from that place of wonder and freedom. I first opened up to improvise and sing in performance in 2001 and I was like a child, eager and excited, not at all concerned with not being "good enough".  It was new, I was on an adventure, exploring! It wasn't until I was in music school in 2006-2008 that I really began to realize how much in music I did not know!! and the seriousness and tension crept in. 

Then I fell in love in the most innocent and excitingly natural way I had ever known and moved to Ottawa, wow!  There I was once again filled with wonder, discovery, dancing in the mystery and magic of the new life unfolding around me. Loving every moment, even the heartache of the relationship falling apart. I knew he had been a catalyst for my growth and I loved my life in Ottawa on my own! the adventure continued!

Then in 2010 I decided to travel to Maui!... Hawaii had been calling me for 10 years and it was time to affirm to the universe that i am open to manifesting my dreams and being someone that lives that way. I spent 3 glorious months on Maui playing music, learning to play the Harp that I found there and being in the flow of Mama Maui! It was magic and again the joy of the mystery and adventure and my spirit shone with love, gratitude and joy!

The bliss is being one with the magic of creation! and I am so passionate about life, learning, discovery, growth, expression, freedom, self-actualization on this spiritual journey of being human.

 Last night I played music for a live yin yoga class, It was a very deep and beautiful practice for myself and all present.  We really focused on remembering how we are one with Nature. we are nature and I love being part of this creative flowing ocean of life! 

See you at Shimhshai or another music event soon!

Blessings! 

 This past year has been a big process of inner house cleaning, so to speak, and as I get more organized, it feels like I am waking up out of a fog of good intentions and suddenly seeing how all the old patterns of procrastination and disorganization have resulted in chaos, disorder & incompletion.

Last fall, in confronting painful feelings and depression, it became clear to me that I was not achieving the goals and dreams for my music and life that I would like.  I realized that something about the way I have been living was not working.  

Even though it was a difficult time emotionally, i knew I had to trust the process and the wisdom of my body-mind. I believe that emotional challenges contain great wisdom and guidance if we can surrender and listen to the messages within.  I know that my experience and emotional pain was pointing me in the direction to evolve and grow.  

So, I just spent the week working 9am-5pm+ on my music business, including finally setting up my new mailing list.  Having a user friendly email system to keep in contact with people about my shows, events, new music etc...has been on my 'to do' list for quite sometime!

 While setting up the new mailing list yesterday, going thru e-mail addresses I had collected, I realized that I actually still had contacts from a few years ago!  I always had the good intention to keep in touch and follow up, you know...?  and well... I guess...  better late than never? 

I am wondering what you would do? Throw them away and start over or risk spamming people I haven't seen in years? Well, hopefully my friends and fans will understand as I get it sorted out.  I'm happy with the first email I designed and sent out today, and it's easy for people to unsubscribe, so people who really want e-mails will get them.  And soon this website will have a new look to match my new logo and from here on in, I will have a system that makes follow thru so much easier! 

So, getting organized and creating systems for ease and flow is where I am at now, especially around my music business/passion.   A few months ago I also decided to "take on" the area of finances like never before, opening to support, tracking daily spending, paying off long-standing debts and budgeting. It is so exciting to actually see the results of new habits!  Even tho it is clear to me that our current financial system is causing most of the destruction of earth and is not sustainable for human well-fare, I feel that gaining some money mastery now is an important step on my path of evolution. We live in exciting times!

As I continue to retrain my brain and behaviour, with a willingness to make changes and take action, things keep getting clearer and clearer. I am excited about what I will create in the future with this new level of focus and clarity... New Music and blogs on a variety of great topics for living vibrantly!... but for now… moment to moment... "chop wood, carry water..." 

I am so grateful for my journey and all the people who have supported me on my path!

Thank you, Mahalo,
Aloha, I love you, 
Theda