Walking out of the fog..
This past year has been a big process of inner house cleaning, so to speak, and as I get more organized, it feels like I am waking up out of a fog of good intentions and suddenly seeing how all the old patterns of procrastination and disorganization have resulted in chaos, disorder & incompletion.
Last fall, in confronting painful feelings and depression, it became clear to me that I was not achieving the goals and dreams for my music and life that I would like. I realized that something about the way I have been living was not working.
Even though it was a difficult time emotionally, i knew I had to trust the process and the wisdom of my body-mind. I believe that emotional challenges contain great wisdom and guidance if we can surrender and listen to the messages within. I know that my experience and emotional pain was pointing me in the direction to evolve and grow.
So, I just spent the week working 9am-5pm+ on my music business, including finally setting up my new mailing list. Having a user friendly email system to keep in contact with people about my shows, events, new music etc...has been on my 'to do' list for quite sometime!
While setting up the new mailing list yesterday, going thru e-mail addresses I had collected, I realized that I actually still had contacts from a few years ago! I always had the good intention to keep in touch and follow up, you know...? and well... I guess... better late than never?
I am wondering what you would do? Throw them away and start over or risk spamming people I haven't seen in years? Well, hopefully my friends and fans will understand as I get it sorted out. I'm happy with the first email I designed and sent out today, and it's easy for people to unsubscribe, so people who really want e-mails will get them. And soon this website will have a new look to match my new logo and from here on in, I will have a system that makes follow thru so much easier!
So, getting organized and creating systems for ease and flow is where I am at now, especially around my music business/passion. A few months ago I also decided to "take on" the area of finances like never before, opening to support, tracking daily spending, paying off long-standing debts and budgeting. It is so exciting to actually see the results of new habits! Even tho it is clear to me that our current financial system is causing most of the destruction of earth and is not sustainable for human well-fare, I feel that gaining some money mastery now is an important step on my path of evolution. We live in exciting times!
As I continue to retrain my brain and behaviour, with a willingness to make changes and take action, things keep getting clearer and clearer. I am excited about what I will create in the future with this new level of focus and clarity... New Music and blogs on a variety of great topics for living vibrantly!... but for now… moment to moment... "chop wood, carry water..."
I am so grateful for my journey and all the people who have supported me on my path!
Thank you, Mahalo,
Aloha, I love you,