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Starting Over... All Over Again

1/23/2012

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     Well, it would appear that there comes a time in life when after years and years of doing the same thing (that seemed so exciting and adventurous when you first began it).... the same way over and over with pretty similar results, one starts to get somewhat bored, or perhaps disillusioned, feeling down, depressed, agitated, frustrated, unfulfilled, as if life and time are passing me by and somehow I am not doing what i came to this earth to really do!!  

Regardless, all the signs are there..... something needs to change.

There is alot I don't know about the music industry, and I'll admit that I've allowed myself to feel a little intimidated by the whole scene.  So many differently elements, from the music creation and production, to booking and promoting shows, online presence, marketing, promoting the music, website stuff, royalties, licensing etc... I feel so behind and it all seems so daunting and never ending.  I have not even begun to approach the idea of record label or management, except that several people in my life repeatedly tell me i need a manager, someone who knows the industry and can help manage my career, get me gigs, help my focus, market me, etc...   

When i was living in Ottawa, I got to experience the joys of having a promoter for local shows, thank goddess for Maike! who, fueled by a relentless passion, would endlessly poster all over town, attending every event she could, to spread the word about the power of healing sound; music that soothes, uplifts and transforms the spirit!   She, would also tell me to get a manager.  And I, the eternal doubter.  Have I really been allowing my frightened inner child to overpower my drive and passion for music?  When I first started performing, I did so with such bold naivety and freedom in the newness, like the innocent child following and creating the dream.

But who am i fooling really? others? myself?  The recurring question lurking around every corner of my mind....   "am i really good enough?" at this point? for a manager? I must need to do more work, more practicing, more learning, more writing, more focusing.  And surely no manager would be interested in an artist who has such personal doubts about her art and abilities.    And yet, let me just say, that when I am in the presence of people who believe in me and my talents and gifts... that a powerful thing happens, an effortless ease, beauty and magic unfolds from my lips as i sing, and my fingers just seem to find the most beautiful notes and chord progressions and something profound happens. I am in the zone, with the music, listening, and the song enters me and moves into the souls of those receiving!!  It is exquisite and i feel at one with my soul and my purpose for being on the planet.  I am connected and free, i am the song and the song moves thru me.     

Well, that is when I am improvising, or channeling, or singing intuitively as I like to call it.  But it also goes for singing my written songs.  When i am invited to perform and people have come to hear me and be in that intimate space with me and are so open to what I have to share... I feel deeply connected with my audience.  For they are what really makes this so fulfilling to me. 

Honestly, singing for myself, is not the same. Something happens when I sing for others. It becomes bigger than me, for it includes all of you.  And it is that deep communion with music and the listener, that really lights my spirit up!!!  Even singing in my kitchen for one person fills me with joy!  So yes, I know i have something to share, there is something authentic in the music that people connect to.   And i know it is time to set it free, to let go of the perfectionism and be willing to step out onto a bigger stage! And yes, i do mean that literally!

It's time to sing and share what I do that comes naturally, as I am. For this is what people seem to love. I know I do!  It is once again time to acknowledge the psychological barrier of fear and take action regardless, and giving the scared little girl inside me a big hug! Knowing that we all have that little part inside of us and that the only way to set it free is to spread our wings and come alive!

I am so grateful for all the support I have received along my journey. Honestly, the feedback given me has been profoundly positive and encouraging and I shall continue to follow the call in my heart, trusting and loving this journey every step of the way. Thank you for the privilege of singing to you.

All my love and gratitude, Theda

 

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Cora link
1/23/2012 06:34:54 pm

Great blog!!! Thank you for sharing your reflections... Lots of deep wisdom and inspiration. I've experienced the magic you channel with Music, it's truly illuminating. I have faith in the divine design of life and *know* that the perfect support to lift you up & propel you on your path is flowing to you now. Love & Honour, Cora :)

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bonnie-jean
1/23/2012 06:57:39 pm

Theda,

I agree that if the marketing and admin aspect of the music business is overwhelming to you, you need to hire a manager; and would suggest that you choose carefully. It may be that you go through 2 or 3 or more before you find the right one, and that is hard but worth the effort. The best thing is to start imagining what life would be like with one...what would he/she be doing and what would you be doing. What would your schedule look like? What would your home look like? What would your bank account look like? How would you feel? but most of all...clearly and specifically, what would he/she be doing for you, ideally....in an imaginary world where the perfect wonderful manager was right there and ready to manifest.

ok, now you have them in your mind, you need to write it down. Put down the list of qualities and skills you want that person to have and to be able to employ. Then keep your eye open for that person. Or actively seek that person. Put out a request into the universe, or even an ad in a local mag or web space. see what transpires.

I have to add, that I adore your work and particularly some of the songs you have written and not recorded.....I think you need to get them recorded. You have a profound "portfolio" of work that is going to be lost to the ethers if you don't start keeping it...and having it all to draw upon, to share and to reflect upon. Your sound is wonderful but your words also are profound and deserve to be noted. It's easy to keep on floating and channelling spirit, love, and inspiration but if you don't solidify and materialize this magic it stays in the ethers and someone else will. Not to be greedy and unwilling to share, but you are here to bring the spirit into the material....that is how you share with those who do not have access to that stuff in the akashic level.

I urge you to follow this line of thought, and to respect and honour your path enough to bring in the support people you need to fully realize this destiny you see unfolding. Doing this also facilitates someone else's destiny....someone special who is wandering around with these fantastic skills of organizing and managing just waiting for the perfect artist to bring to the people in a very real way.

We can't do it all alone. That is why we are born into a community...a tribe. I do very different work, but i can do more of my passion, more of my inspired "helping people" work when i find others to work on the areas that I am not effective. (for me that is housework and accounting lol)

Hail from Ottawa, Theda. We miss you, and look forward to your return!
love
bj

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Shine link
1/24/2012 03:36:14 am

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Tilman von der Linde
1/24/2012 04:16:23 am

Great Blog Theda! There is always someone who knows somebody who can assist you further.

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Kamile Kapel link
1/24/2012 04:55:40 am

Theda, I love your blog!!! This is so cool! I would love it if there were a link to a video of you singing at the bottom of it. Could you please do an improvisation on this theme?

Maybe you could also have a section where people can order an improvised song? For instance, if someone is grieving a loved one, they could order a song for that person. They could pay whatever donation they want. And you could send them a video of the song and also post it on your website if they want. Hey, maybe I'll do this too! We'll start a trend!

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Katrina
1/24/2012 10:46:44 am

As beautiful as you! Thank you for sharing so authentically!!! You are such a gift!!! Hugs to you!!!

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Amy Color
1/24/2012 04:03:55 pm

Beautiful honest blog.
Theda, You are absolutely good enough.
Your sound clears me heals even me!
Get a manager or a promoter on percentage.
Let it out loud.

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Francoise
1/25/2012 10:49:47 am

Dearest Theda~
You are fully and completely talented, enough and capable of taking your career to the next level! You are supported <3<3<3 I honour the honesty of your process. I ask myself similar questions all the time...Follow your bliss and do it because YOU LOVE IT and it makes you glow all over. It's the risk we never take that we may end up regretting as opposed to the challenges and failure along the way. If you don't try you'll never know. Bless you sista! xoxo

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The Art of April-Anna link
2/8/2012 04:14:28 am

Hey dear.... I relate to your words... It is indeed a daunting task to try to not only create a sustainable career but an abundant one... The so called easiest part is the creative side, it`s not easy for artists & musicians to take care of marketing, promotion, business, bookings et cetera; even those of us who are relatively good at it are not as good as someone who is specialized in the business side of things. I often wish for an agent or manager, but alas, it`s just that much harder with visual arts. So in your case, I say don`t hold back, I think you should go after getting a manager or agent, and milk that help for all it`s worth, it`s worth it and the world needs more music like yours !

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8/19/2012 09:26:15 am

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5/6/2013 02:52:14 pm

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